Its true! Its finally happening!

FINALLY! After all the time and money issues... its happening...
were getting married! YAYAYYYYY!!!
Im so beyond excited I can't even explain...
Things are going great...
We have so much in the works, I can't wait to see it all come together....

Were getting hitched in my grandma Browns backyard...
It will be special... alot of good memories have been had back there...
Im sure it will be emotional, as Grandpa Bob wont be there to share it with us...
But, being there will only guarantee that he will be there in spirit.

My #1 Uncle, Uncle Gooser is handling the meat...
haha... that sounds funny...
anyways, he will be COOKING the meat...
is making us all a fantastic feast of BBQ chicken and pulled pork...
just wait till you taste it... Its amazing...
and there will be a random array of other BBQ favorites there as well.

A huge tent to hold some of the guests...
Pretty white linens on the tables and chairs...
with big black bows on the back of each one...

And for then centerpieces... I had the awesome idea of using little trees...
Wrapping the pots in my damask fabric...
with a big huge red satin bow...
and tealight candles scattered all around.
Then, when the wedding is over...
all the closest friends and family can plant the trees in their yard...
Not only will this look adorable...
But, its totally eco-friendly...
No waste... No cut flowers or plastic ones to pitch....
Just another tree growing in the world...

And for me? Well, Im still on the hunt for a dress after the previous diaster...
I have my eye on this one, by Jessica McClintock...

But we will see... Ive had a REALLY hard time finding one I love...
and I think this one might be it... Classic... vintage... sexy... with a bit of black...
Perfect for an outdoor BBQ wedding, right?
Just say yes, cuz I want this to be the one...
Oh, and its on sale :) It was $470... and now its on sale for $180 in the store...
Now, thats a steal for the perfect wedding dress :)

Invitations are going out any day now...
I so BADLY want to show you our image...
but Im afraid someone is going to steal it...
I wish I knew how to do that cool watermark thing!

Well, I guess thats all for now!
Can't wait to see some of you there!

So far... when it rains it pours...

So - due to the reality of the cost of a wedding yes, everything had been postponed...
Slowly but surely were trying to make things happen...

We still have no clue about a venue...
I guess even to get married in a park around here you have to pay $500 for a wedding permit...
LAME!!!! Anyone want to share their backyard?
Or just give us about $5000 so we can go back to the plan of getting married at the W?
Thatd be nice, and much appreciated...

Oh, and my dress... yah - total fail...
we thought we were making a smart move... getting a good deal...
WRONG!!
It came with rips, tears, and holes in the black layers...
lace on the layers instead of satin...
pink/red stains on the white faux satin...
the fabric was insanely cheap...
crooked stitches everywhere... chunks of hanging fabric untrimmed...
it was terrible. I wanted to die... If I wasn't so furious I would have been crying.
Dream dress... yeah... gone.
So now on an already insanely tight budget, I have to fight to get my money back...
AND find a new dress...
I assume something generic and off the rack to get it in time.
Sad, very sad....

On the plus side.... we got our bands!
I was going to get something custom from Etsy...
but the cost was just as much for 3 tiny diamonds as what we paid for this bling...


I absolutely love it... and its really cool how the two metals contrast off eachother...
(titanium engagement ring & white gold band)
and zaqs is so super amazing...
totally him... black... pinstripes...
and one of his favorite features was the silver inlay...
Its so perfectly traditional yet modern & indie rocker dude.



So yeah... another thing off the checklist, so thats good...
but all the biggest stuff...
venue, dress, etc. etc. etc....
still yet to be determined.
Would love some advice!

Perfectly Punk Rock..

Got my dress in the mail today... 

it is THE biggest piece of junk Ive ever seen...

okay, maybe not the biggest... but its horrible... 

After tons of offers from friends and family to make my dream dress...

I had found a shop on ebay that made custom dresses...

they had 99.7 % positive feedback..

not bad right?

Wrong. 

I was so dumb... 

of course, were trying to save every penny we can to make a nice wedding happen...

this was SO not the place to try to be cheap... 

Not even cheap, it was still about $300... 

I could have went to David's Bridal... hit up their sale and gotten an amazing...

tradition... white wedding dress....

but no - thats not me... 

I could try to blow it off... say hey, what the hell... its punk rock right?

jacked up stitches... crappy tulle... crooked, janky and costume like... haha

perfectly puck rock...

But no chance in hell... its that bad guys...

so now I have to beg and plead with the store...

with paypal... and ebay...

try to get my money back... 

while I should be getting to be the beautiful bride...

drooling over my awesome wedding dress...

GOOOO!!!!

Can anything just go right?

Anyways... rant over...

on a plus note...

were still working on plans...

I noticed Halloween is on a Saturday this year... 

though it would be cool to get married that night... 

Itd kinda tie in our skeletons theme... 

Till death do us part, etc. etc. etc...

Still do the black red and damask... just on a cooler date! haha

Zaq brought up vegas alot... save money and what not...

but I wanted to have a nice wedding... not a quickie... haha

so i started thinking of a compromise...

Vegas - Hard Rock Hotel... 

They have 4 different wedding packages... 

and one... the Rockstar, is black red and white with damask!!

How perfect would that be... yeah, i know... perfect.

The perfect meet in the middle... 

mommy gets her cool fancy wedding...

daddy gets to be rock n roll and save some dough, haha

So, keep checking back for plans...

ill let everyone know whats going on soon!

Dried flowers...

So, in my attempt to be both punk rock & a hippie...
wait... haha thats just crazy talk...
How about... in my attempt to be punk rock and environmentally friendly...
I have come up with a few more ideas...
One of my number 1 buyers in the baby shop, Tory...
introduced me to a shop on etsy, Layla.
www.Layla.etsy.com
she has tons & tons of dried herbs, flowers, and more...
Also, eco-friendly confetti... its safe, and clean-up free!
Just melts away after the rain...


Now, this got me thinking...
I have about 3 dozen roses that zaq has given me, and I have dried...
How cool would it be to crunch them all up and use them as potpourri in bathrooms...
maybe even as decor on the tables like confetti?
Buy some of her mint and lavendar to mix in with it... yum.
AND its extra special because theyre flowers from my future hubby :)

Another thought... before I crush them up of course...
is to use them in the actual arrangements...
However the thought of dried flowers and lots of candles could be scary, haha
I started searching etsy to see if this was even a realistic idea... and it turns out, it is!
This shop, Twigs & Honey (www.myrakim.etsy.com) has some amazing stufffs!
Flowers, head Pieces.. veils.. And she does just a BEAUTIFUL job.
Anyways... I really like the look of these...

And with all my years of floral design it would be super
easy for me to throw in my own style and make it my own...

Theyre made of dried flowers, feathers, lace etc...
All similar ideas I had, just different color scheme really.

I instantly have this vision... little boutonniere for the guys and babies...
Bowls of dried red poutporri on the tables... lace tied around the vases...
clusters of dried roses stuck into the vases... ahhhh!!!
The possibilities are endless!
And just imagine all the wonderful smells!

Eco-friendly... cheap... what more oculd I ask for!?
I already have the perfect feathers to add the punky spunk i need...
Yeah... not gunna lie im pretty psyched about this idea!!!